The rubber-band snaps backinto place, I feel for my limbs, my fingers,my hands, feet — and I haste to tell the good news to those I love that the lights are back on! It will be as if I had nevergone: back into this body,this mind, I have thrownthe storm. I have survived anothermonth, and… Continue reading The End of Premenstrual-Dysphoric Disorder: A Poem (2021)
T-0 Days until Period The Gods have answered my prayers, and I got my period a day early! People do not tend to celebrate getting their period (unless you have PMDD, or if you hope that you are not pregnant) but I certainly do. I do not care about the cramps. I do not care… Continue reading PMDD…and it’s OVER.
T-2 Days until Period It is official. I am BORED of these feelings. I am dulled by these emotional fluctuations. I am almost certain that I have pushed a large chunk of people away from me through being open about this ridiculous illness. I have documented over the past fifteen days to provide a demonstration… Continue reading PMDD…and when will this be over?
T-3 Days until Period EMETOPHOBIA WARNING: I am sure you have this with typical PMS as well, but the intensity of the depression resulting from Premenstrual-Dysphoric Disorder is well, something else entirely. I have been crying on and off for the past two days and it has yet to abate. I am paranoid that nobody… Continue reading PMDD…and crying all over the place?
T-6 days until period. If you are familiar with Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (or my updates concerning it), you will have a thorough understanding that PMDD is a harsher, more self-destructive version of PMS. It can play into the dynamics of your most intimate, interpersonal relationships: the paranoia, the suicidal ideation, the low sense of self-image.… Continue reading PMDD…and Relationships?
T-7 Days until period. Well, it is that part of the month again — where my physical shape starts altering as it readies itself for my period. I take on water weight in my face and my gut. I feel bigger in my arms and my legs. Everything appears to expand. Whether this is the… Continue reading PMDD and…Body Dysmorphia?
T-8/9 days until period. And I am on the UP again. Interesting how one can be so monumentally low and then in the next succession of moments, have access to their reasoning faculties again. The short story is: I upset a real close friend by correcting him on some details concerning the English Reformation. I… Continue reading PMDD: Hypersexuality and the Borderline (Day 6)
T-10/11 days until period. TW: Suicidal Ideation; Self-Harm Who has a desire to commit suicide? I believe that may be me. I am ashamed to admit it. Am I losing the fight? A little. My self-image is fracturing all over the place; the paranoia is evident; the insomnia is real; I feel incredibly low; and… Continue reading PMDD: Day 4/5
The title sticks it to the point, really. I have cut Olanzapine out of my life. For those of you who are not in the know, Olanzapine is a relatively powerful anti-psychotic. However, it caused me to gain a ton of weight in a concentrated amount of time, and this has left me feeling pretty… Continue reading Olanzapine Withdrawal: A Post
I suppose I should be grateful that my PMDD only started on Wednesday — but it is growing increasingly horrifying. I feel on edge, isolated, and deeply alone. It is harrowing. It is not to the effects of anyone around me; they are as attentive as ever. The source of such a series of emotional… Continue reading Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder: June 2021
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